I Have A Story For Me – Josh Journal
Every once in a while, I have a duty to remind myself why I write. This post is more for you than for me. And the whole of this post is a long-winded way to tell myself that I have a story, and this story deserves to be told.
As a creative, a writer, in particular, it is easy to get lost as regards your purpose, or your directive. They say get a job doing what you love, and you’ll never work a day in your life.
What they forgot to mention is that on some days you will dislike, dare I say, hate, doing the very thing you could have sworn you would gladly do for free for the rest of your life.
I have opened my notepad and just hated the fact that I am staring at an empty page. The most annoying part is that I always have something to write. I never have writer’s block. Yet, at that moment, I want to do anything but write.
I like to believe that I am awesomely good at everything I do. Scratch that. I am great at everything I do. Time and again, I have been offered payment for some of my abilities. In some instances, I even get offered a career path.
One thing my writing experience has taught me though is that some things are best left as hobbies or in an advisory capacity. I don’t have to make a career or an earning out of all.
You might be of an opposite view to that, and I applaud your ability to function like that.
For me, all I want to do is to tell stories. As a writer, some days, I wake up and I want to write a story that the whole world must read. Other days I want to write stories that are for my eyes only.
Sometimes I want to write about those I love the most, other times I want to write about those I have come to hate.
On rare occasions, I feel the need to write about happy memories and the people that created them with me. On even rarer occasions, I want to write about moments that left me hurt, heartbroken, and the culprits.
Whatever the moment or the feeling, all I want to do is write.
On my phone, on the computer, on a book, on a sheet of paper, I want to entertain, educate, and elevate the mind. I consider myself a teacher, a preacher, and an entertainer.
I walk the line between a creator and a spectator. A participant, a character, the mood, the theme, the setting, the narrator, an analyst, and the audience.
The story I want to write is as much for me as it is for you. Before you get to read it, I read it first. And before you were entertained, I was entertained.
This is for those of us who despite how we feel find it impossible to stop writing. The story lives in us. We live to tell our stories.