This has gone beyond engaging in self-destructive behavior. You are now in the territory of shooting yourself in the foot and sticking the bloody foot in your mouth.
You are burning bridges and taking others as collateral damages in the process.
Another crazy thing about heartbreak is that even if you can see it from a mile away, it doesn’t hurt any less.
Both times I’ve experienced heartbreak, I had envisaged it, but that doesn’t ease the impact. As a matter of fact, it hurt more.